hey, shoutout to the super special amazing human who upgraded my journal for me today!! i dont know who you are but you are awesome and i thank you heartily for the gift.

I sacrificed precious writing time to make a new header AND ISN'T SHE GLORIOUS.

I'D LIKE YOU ALL TO KNOW I DON'T HAVE A FECKIN TABLET ANYMORE. Don't even have a mouse. I had to magic-select those pixels off the touchpad on my laptop it was like a three-finger assault maneuver I WANT A MEDAL GODDAMMIT

anyway now that i have a little bushel of new icons and a new header (i really need to organise my tags but that will take all year) i have scratched that itch and can go back to writing.

i am soooo behind. don't fully know if i'll be able to do both AU series before pea's birthday next year but I will deffo feckin try to get the first one finished, at least.

so like back in May when it was announced that Russell was coming back and they announced Ncuti Gatwa as the new Doctor, it really charged me to go back to working on SLDverse-- which I have been, very slowly. the pandemic really exacerbated my adhd, and Im 37 now and I work a full-time job and guise I'm tired. but 10 and Donna have been living rent-free in my head all these years and I will publish this fic series if it kills me.

so the bombastic reveal that the Thirteenth Doctor regenerated last night back into Sir David Tennant is like... I was off my head last night. I was obnoxious. I was 23 again. I am sofucking EXCITED.

also it gives me a deadline bc I'm gonna finish AUS5 before the 60th. I'm gonna.

This journal is three journals in one.

(If they figure out how to import tumblrs into Dreamwidth, it'll be four.)

I've been on the internet a long long time, starting out in AOL chatrooms in the late nineties as a kid way too young to be doing that. Those usernames are long since lost in the sieve that is my brain.

The first I remember, the one that stuck, is tessenchan. I used that name from 2003-2005 on ff.net, and on DeadJournal from 2002-2004. In 2004 I moved to LiveJournal and used that name until 2009.

In 2009 I created my writing journal, mihane_echo, but it quickly became my main journal. When Dreamwidth launched I imported mihane and tessenchan here.

I left Dreamwidth in 2013, absorbed into the floodwaters of dopamine that is tumblr, but returned almost a decade later because I missed this sort of organised journaling with its nested comments and vast fields of icons. Any posts to this journal between 2013-2021 are backdated from my tumblr.

I am incredibly jealous of people who find it easy to journal in paper and ink, who can seek out a volume of their life and just go through it. But my handwriting is messy and my brain goes too fast for my hand to keep up.

So this is the closest thing to a single volume of my life I think I will be able to achieve.

Please to enjoy <3

Title: Cake Kisses
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated E for everyone
Word Count: 1166
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: AU Series 5 (Sounds Like Destiny ficverse)
Summary: The Doctor has a birthday-- and Donna is going to make sure he celebrates it.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.

Author's Note: This is shamelessly fluffy (it's called Cake Kisses, ffs. When have I ever been so sugary?) and it is my contribution to the 50th celebrations. Obviously, with my usual Ten/Donna spin. Happy 50th, Doctor <3


( cake kisses )

Title: And Another Hatbox
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated T for slight sexual themes
Word Count: 1645
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: Through 4.07 The Unicorn and the Wasp
Summary: The Doctor introduces Donna to the TARDIS wardrobe before Lady Eddy's cocktail party.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.
Author's Note: Shameless Doctor/Donna bantering fluff for Ten Day. Please to enjoy. <3


( And Another Hatbox )

Headline! Tea's computer being unpredictably cranky, shutting down randomly without warning. Resident Master Tech Genius Dad left clueless, but not giving up. Now to the weather. Occasionally chilly as permits winter in the northern hemisphere but usually irritably hot as is normal for South Florida! Yuck!

Anyway. Not dead. Miserable and depressed and hating my life rn but not dead. I miss my pretty pea posh lil. Also miss my friends: I have worked every weekend for the past month. Angry doesn't begin to cover it. Also tired. jfc am I ever tired.

Hopefully I can be more frequent with the updates if the computer ever gets fixed but until then, here: a meme I stole from Pea.

( Chrimble Muzak Muzak Muzak )

AVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERS

AvengersAvengersAVENGERS. Fangasms galore. Seizure-like fits of giggling and clapping, like a toddler presented with jangling keys. The Hulk stealing the show. Tony <3 ahsdjkflae my baby. I may've become a Hiddles fan (goddammit. I was doing so well against the clusterfuck of Hiddleston on my dash. But Loki was so deliciously, magnificent-bastardly yummy.)

JOSS WHEDON. Been my Master since 2003. Reaffirmed my minionship today. He might as well have painted his name in all the frames, his mark is indelible. jfc. And also, I would like to do naughty sexual things to the soundtrack. Alan Silvestri reminded me why he deserves my flailing (if not the unfaltering loyalty I give to Hans Zimmer.)

Makes me kinda sad that today's opening day; this needs to be on DVD yesterday.

Title: Queen of the Winter Night 5/5
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated E for everyone
Word Count: 4066/31694
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: Through 4.13 Journey's End
Summary: The Doctor is thrust back into an amnesiac Donna's path when an alien seeks sanctuary with her.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.
Author's Note: Okay, this has taken like ten thousand years, but here is the first story of my Sounds Like Destiny series, affectionately referred to as AU Series 5. This story replaces The Next Doctor as the Christmas story after Journey's End.

Author's Note 2: Thanks to my beta and good friend biodamped for her patience, support and frequent butt-kicking. More thanks than I have words for really. ily darling <3

Author's Note 3: Thank you everyone for reading and commenting! <3 I promise to get to all of them when I can, but for a quick blanket statement, thank you, thank you, thank you. AU S5 will return in Nth Time's The Charm... sometime in the near future. ;p

( there is an ornament... lost inside the night )

Title: Queen of the Winter Night 4/5
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated E for everyone
Word Count: 7678/31694
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: Through 4.13 Journey's End
Summary: The Doctor is thrust back into an amnesiac Donna's path when an alien seeks sanctuary with her.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.
Author's Note: Okay, this has taken like ten thousand years, but here is the first story of my Sounds Like Destiny series, affectionately referred to as AU Series 5. This story replaces The Next Doctor as the Christmas story after Journey's End.

Author's Note 2: Thanks to my beta and good friend biodamped for her patience, support and frequent butt-kicking. More thanks than I have words for really. ily darling <3

Author's Note 3: HAPPY CHRIMBLE flist. <3 I hope Santa has brought everyone something awesome and that your days are filled with joy and love.


( come, christmas, stay, christmas, watch over her this day; keep her, protect her, from harm now in every way; shelter her gently, there in your arms she'll be; until the day when you bring her back home to me )

Title: Queen of the Winter Night 3/5
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated E for everyone
Word Count: this part 8153
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: Through 4.13 Journey's End
Summary: The Doctor is thrust back into an amnesiac Donna's path when an alien seeks sanctuary with her.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.
Author's Note: Okay, this has taken like ten thousand years, but here is the first story of my Sounds Like Destiny series, affectionately referred to as AU Series 5. This story replaces The Next Doctor as the Christmas story after Journey's End.

Author's Note 2: Thanks to my beta and good friend biodamped for her patience, support and frequent butt-kicking. More thanks than I have words for really. ily darling <3


( i don't believe i can say what had happened; all of those words that we put into play no longer matter; I should have known that then; i just know you're far away )

Title: Queen of the Winter Night 2/5
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated E for everyone
Word Count: this part 6887
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: Through 4.13 Journey's End
Summary: The Doctor is thrust back into an amnesiac Donna's path when an alien seeks sanctuary with her.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.
Author's Note: Okay, this has taken like ten thousand years, but here is the first story of my Sounds Like Destiny series, affectionately referred to as AU Series 5. This story replaces The Next Doctor as the Christmas story after Journey's End.

Author's Note 2: Thanks to my beta and good friend biodamped for her patience, support and frequent butt-kicking. More thanks than I have words for really. ily darling <3


( somewhere the wind carves moments in the snow; and if he sees her, he never lets it show, he just drifts behind her erasing every step )

Title: Queen of the Winter Night 1/5
Author: Tess/teashadephoenix
Rating: Rated E for everyone
Word Count: this part 4910
Pairing: Ten/Donna
Spoilers: Through 4.13 Journey's End
Summary: The Doctor is thrust back into an amnesiac Donna's path when an alien seeks sanctuary with her.
Disclaimer: The canon stuff belongs to the Beeb and I'm borrowing it to play with. Everything else I made up for my entertainment.
Author's Note: Okay, this has taken like ten thousand years, but here is the first story of my Sounds Like Destiny series, affectionately referred to as AU Series 5. This story replaces The Next Doctor as the Christmas story after Journey's End.

Author's Note 2: Thanks to my beta and good friend biodamped for her patience, support and frequent butt-kicking. More thanks than I have words for really. ily darling <3


( there is an ornament lost inside the night, there on a Christmas tree with a thousand lights; no one can see her, she's standing all alone; somewhere she glistens where no one can see )

Okay, so in my procrastination boredom I created my art masterlist; in doing so I realised there's a couple of doodles that have fallen by the wayside.

Nothing amazing, just cuteness.

( DOODLES )

Ganked hardcore from goodbye2pisces cause awesomepants.

Your job is now your Time Lord name. The last digit of your phone number is the current regeneration you are in. The nearest clothing item to your right is now the most notable item in your current wardrobe. The last person you texted is your current companion. Your favourite word is now your catchphrase.

Name The Sandwich Artist is garbage. my real name is in the title.
Current regeneration Second! Im a baby.
Wardrobe My jeans. That's it? Plain old boring jeans? Am I naked on top or what?
Companion Cora! <3 Blonde, cute and geeky. I'll have it. She'll be mags.
Catchphrase "No probs." Or awesomepants. Or mags, actually. I say them a lot.

And the added bit: TARDIS stuck as...? A grandfather clock. <3

ETA: My brother was amused and played along despite his lack of enthusiasm for all things Who. These are his answers:

Name The Barista. (He makes the best coffee in all of time and space.)
Current regeneration Sixth.
Wardrobe There wasn't anything to his right, so in his words, "Im either naked or wearing a suit made of Bounty." xD
Companion Boo-boo. He assures me that isn't the girl's name, but its also all he would tell me.
Catchphrase "Shiny!" (Actually his catchphrase irl.)
TARDIS stuck as...? The DeLorean. (Yes. He also says he won't shift into the time vortex until he reaches 88 mph. Geek.) <3

I realised something last week. It has been so long since I engaged in fandom activity (nearly ten years!) with another person right in front of me that I have sort of forgotten that not everybody watches telly like I do. (Apart from my brother, but he doesn't count because we watch telly exactly the same.)

A new co-worker of mine, Cora, is a big telly geek too. Which has made it crazy fun to work with her (especially in the emotional climate my job is currently in.)

But last week, we got a spoiler photo from an episode of Dexter. And I started postulating who I thought it could be. Midway through the conversation, Cora says to me

"I've never done this, trying to figure out what's gonna happen next."

And I screeched to a halt.

I know I don't watch things the way a lot of people do. I suppose most people watch an episode, and once it's over, it's over. Not for me. I continue thinking about it. I blog about it. I theorise. (Sometimes I fic and get really emotionally invested and cry for way too long when a character regenerates and the show takes a flying leap. That happens too.)

I look at it from a writer's perspective. I know all the tricks and I can name all the tropes. I can usually spot a plot twist coming a mile off, unless it's really clever or really stupid.

So when my prediction on who the murder victim was turned out to be RIGHT...

D8 I feel all guilty now! I totes inadvertantly spoiled it for Cora.

Nevermind that I dont usually get fannish outside of my house to start with. (Cons are just.. ohmgod I get so much secondhand embarrassment. And actors finding out or talking about fic? Or shipping? OH GOD. MY BRAIN.)

Only me, of course. I'm fairly sure no one else cares.

Anyway, on the commentary for The Poison Sky David mentions that Cate texted him to say that John Barrowman was presenting This Morning with Fern Britton. ("Does the man never sit down?!" I always rewind that bit at least twice. I love it.)

That episode aired 1 May 2008 (I looked it up on Barrow's imdb.) So Susie (Liggat, producer) Russell and Dave were doing the commentary two days before broadcast (which I think they actually mention but I couldn't remember the airdate for The Poison Sky.)

Here's the amusing thing: also on 1 May 2008, Russell wrote an email to Ben Cook (as found in The Writer's Tale) that John Simm was confirmed to return as the Master in Dave's last episodes.

Imagine if they'd spilled that on the commentary. xD

/amused (Srsly, that was it. Confluence, not even a coincidence. I told you no one else would care.)

All right, yes, fine, I will get back to writing. (I cannot think of anything funny for Donna to say! And I still can't think of something for Wilf to yell at the Big Bad! GAAAH.)

Last time I had thinky thoughts, katherine_b suggested I share. (She also let go a Freudian slip when she said kinky thoughts instead...)

So @work and still sicky, this is what's keeping me from keeling over dead:

Ten and Donna skinnydipping together.

<3

Sometimes I wish I was pretentious enough to get away with putting

*credits*

at the appropriate bit of my stories where the first scene would lead into the opening theme. But Im not, so I won't. I hate it when people do that.

I am still playing with the idea to title the chapters after the music cues Im thinking of when I write. (Does anybody else do that? Write, say, an action scene to A Pressing Need to Save the World or a running scene to Corridors and Fire Escape? This is of course assuming everyone has the Who OST in the first place...)

On that note, what DO you write to? (If pop music so applies, don't be shy. I was writing porn to Katy Perry's ET the other day.)

Does music inspire my flist, thats what I want to know. <3

Topic for the day, go! ;B